Ego

 

Its such a mysterious thing. I just put a define:ego and whoa!! Such a long list ..

http://www.google.com/search?sourceid=navclient&ie=UTF-8&rlz=1T4SUNA_enUS292US292&q=define%3aego

 

To my perception, this one fits the bill

 

The self, especially with overtones of self-importance; The most conscious part of the mind, which mediates with one's surroundings

 

The reason, as usual, is in my surroundings. Seeing a lot of things happen due to ego, Clients, Colleagues, Friends, relatives and even mine

 

For mine not to affect anyone else, I guess need a different level of self-consciousness, a check on self every moment, Am I doing/saying this for some reason or am I doing it only because it affects me?

 

Lets see how it goes…

Followers

I found I have two followers!! I was so amused to have followers for a blog that is so infrequently updated..

Thanks Gullu and Purnima !! I already have you on Google Reader- So I get your updates when-it-happens..

Being Charged Extra?

Tuned in to my car radio in one of last 2-3 days. Since the local desi channel was having some discussion going on , I changed it to another one where it had the Delilah show.Something about the Delilah show that I know.. I used to hear it in Connecticut during driving in the evenings. Usually I used to be alone in the car so wanted some sound around. Dint understand much of the songs, but her soothing voice telling to "sit back and relax" used to be good to hear. When I arrived in Dallas, I thought I will have to look for some local FM channel as driving company, there I had found the desi channel radio Salaam Namaste. Once I lost what frequency it was and started the scan, and at one point I heard Delilah, to my surprise, to sit back and relax...So back to what I want to write about.. As usual, Delilah had a caller who said she had been dumped by her ex-boyfriend and now she was going around with another guy, whom she loved but is always afraid that he doesnt love her enough or will just dump her again. Delilah's answer was something that I liked. She said " You walk into a Store, and you have bought a can of soda. You are standing in a line in front of the cashier, and when its your turn the cashier says your bill is 28 dollars while you are buying a can of soda for say 3 dollars. You ask the cashier, I have just bought this soda for 3 dollars and you are charging me 28. If the cashier replies, yours in just $3 but the person in front of you did not pay $25 so you have to pay it , what would your reaction be ? " The caller realised that she was treating the new guy with pain of the old and she then agreed she will think it in a differnet light. Thanking Delilah and requesting her song dedicated to the new guy she hung up.
Nice answer isnt it? Many of us keep doing this a lot of times in lot of places.. Angry with someone , take out your frustration on someone else. Frustrated with something in your life, keep bickering about everything.. I do it a lot of times.. but now I will watch, am I charging the person for something that he hasnt bought ?

Anniversary

An year back this time, I was in utter shock.. as I had an accident while driving..

Today when I look back at the year of driving, it has been hardly 2-3 months that I havent driven around. I had bought a 125K miles car in November and have added nearly 7000 Miles on it..
I got my US Driving License in this one year..
I have driven nearly 900 miles on a 4 day trip and 500 on another 1.5 day trip ..

and not to forget , I pay nearly $200 as insurance premium every month :-)

But I am a better driver now! Happy Anniversary !

{ Touchwood!!!}

August Rush

August has been very happening month for me since last few years..

August was the month I joined Engg college, the same month that I met inseparable and closest freinds.. Friends whom I can pick up a conversation after any gap of time.. Touchwood

August is the month I had the first interview and then I got my first job.

August is the month when I bought my first digital camera :-)

August is the month when I had my first car accident ..

and Again August is bringing a change in my life.. A new place, new kind of work..and I guess a new place where I know very little people around..

but then when the month is named August, the change has to be good :-)

Tagged by Purnima

I am tagged by Purnima.. I love to read her blog so when she tagged I did take out some time to answer her tag.. My answers below will be evident whats on my mind..

I AM THINKING ABOUT : Why am I so uninterested to complete the work that is scheduled to be done till tomorrow morning?

I SAID : duh! I don't want to work anymore.. but I have to..

I WANT TO : go home in Dombivli , Maharashtra, India...

I WISH : I could fly and reach home now!

I WONDER : Why did I agree to come here in first place :-)

I REGRET : getting angry and frustrated when I have too much to do in too little time.. and after I have wasted a lot of time on unnecessary things

I HEAR : news right now about the inflation in India and commodities shortage..

I AM : BORED... TIRED.. Complaining..

I DANCE : when no one is looking

I SING : when a song starts playing in my mind

I CRY : almost on any occasion - it could be watching a senti scene in a movie ( I had tears while watching OSO ) or I could be absolutely angry and most when I am chatting at home..

I AM NOT : well since last 3 days.. got Jabardast Jukam and Khatarnaak Khasi.. have recovered 90% now..

I MAKE WITH MY HANDS : Chapati dough .. Software Engineer ke life me apne haathonse kuch banane ka mauka hi kahan milta hai .. haathon ko keyboard aur mouse se fursat mile tab na ..

I WRITE : whatever hits me hard.. hard enough to set me writing..

I CONFUSE : emotions with everything.. life and work, friends and colleagues, personal relations and professional relations..

I NEED : a break and don't know how to have it..

I TAG : No One and Everyone - No one specific and Everyone who wants to take it.

Disclaimer: No proofreading or review has been done on this post. Deemed unnecessary

Love Story

This isn't a story if you are looking for one.. This is about the book I came across.

Love Story by Erich Segal is a wonderful little love-story. Its a story that can happen in any country, in any decade and with anyone. A straightforward story narrated vividly!

It struck me for its simplicity. The initial sparks between Jenny and Oliver , the constant intellectual tussle between these two and the bluntness in expressing their feelings to each other. Their will to follow their heart, and then take responsibility for everything that happens after that.

Its the story of a couple who meets in their college days, starts on a quarreling note yet feels the impulse to continue to be together, slowly realises that they like each other in a different way and understand each other in the way they don't understand themselves. Due to disparities in family statuses, don't get approval from one side, and go on to marry sacrificing their dreams and then slowly start adjusting to reality and then reach a comfortable place slowly and surely. The story then takes filmy turn and the heroine gets a incurable disease and takes a graceful exit teaching her husband to love his own father whom he never respected or was even on normal speaking terms with.

The height of this Love story is the definition of love which-as it indicates-is true for every relation..

Love means not ever having to say you are sorry.

I am thankful to my friend who recommended this book to me..

Waiting for the time to "Spring Forward"

An interesting thing for me , who was born and brought up in a country where there is a single time zone and the time is constant -- Daylight Saving Time

In US :
In Spring , the time changes from 1:59 am to 3:00 am .. Springs forward and in Fall, the time changes from 1:59 am to 1:00 am

Its interesting to see the effort Humans put to control The Time, which is considered as the fixed fourth dimension of life.
and its more interesting how humans cope with this change.
- Trains , to save money on schedule printing, run late when Spring time changes and Stop for an hour in Fall to catch up the original time.
- Computer Servers , if not correctly patched, run scheduled jobs at different time, disrupting schedules
More interesting facts on
http://webexhibits.org/daylightsaving/k.html

Hey it just happened :-) I stayed up to see how clocks change.. My Cable TV clock changed from 1:59 to 3:00 .. While my Cell phone company dint .. its 2:02 am when it should be 3:02.

I actually wanted to see this change of time .. I am yet to check the servers I manage , They had missed the time during the Fall change.

Poor my friend, his wife has job at 7 am , we just had a party till 12 at his home.. They were already sad about one hour less sleep.. and they were going to rely on the same cell phone company.. I hope the Cell phone company wakes up to the correct time soon!


I know this post doesnt have anything except few random thoughts on the DST. But still , its my blog and so I can write any stuff! ( I know you are reading the right word :P)

Just like that

I just want to write today.. Dont have any special thing on my mind..
I generally write when something hits me hard, bt been sometime since I got hit :-)

Few notable things that I came across
A quote : Life is a long lesson in humility.

Found this nicely built website on Veer Damodar Savarkar..
www.savarkar.org
Skimmed through and loved it !

Also brooding on one of the shloka that I know very well since childhood, but dont exactly know the Meaning. .

Purnamadaha purnamidam purnaat purna mudachyate
purnasya purnamaadaaya purnamevavashishyate

I am sure I will find it soon..

Piggy Bank

My Roomie and I were looking for Birthday gift for a little girl who is now turning EIGHT.. The eight is in Caps as the little girls likes to pretend to be older than her age :-)
After a little thought for her craze for dancing and coloring, and her trying-to-be-older-than-her-age attitude, we chose to give her some sensible gift , a Piggy bank.. Something which will help her learn that little by little one can build up a fortune.
So "Do deewane sheher me , Raat me aur do peher me" started looking for a nice little piggy bank.
In US , we generally look for things in the Mall or the super-stores which boast
"We sell for less"
"All the Ingredients"
"Where It Begins"
"Its All Inside"
"Don't stop living in the red"

So we went on the search .. Initially we had thought its going to be easy. But soon we found out that searching a Piggy Bank is like searching a needle in Haystack.
Toy-stores ? One of them had really ugly piggy banks or miniature locker-cupboards for Coin savers.
The store of world-famous Children's entertainers who say "Its a small world" dont keep piggy bank or even a mousy bank.
Card Stores? They have piggy bank marked "For our first baby", "Daughter's College fund", "You are turning 70" ,
Super stores -- Only one of them had Piggy bank which was huge enough to be a Pumpkin was too costly to be fit for a Piggy bank.
So after roaming in the mall for 3 hours, in a superstore for 1 hour and another for 1/2 hour in another store we dint buy anything :-(

Just a day before the birthday, we picked up some toy and gifted it to her.
Fortunately the little girl liked it!!

Taare Zameen Par

Taare Zameen par is a movie about Dyslexic Children.. Wonderfully made!
As one of my friend says, its the real use of a powerful medium

I happened to watch it twice , on continuous days .. It happens with me that second thoughts and Third thoughts are too much from a critic's point of view. With Taare Zameen Par, I happened to find more meaning in the movie second time I watched it.

I feel its not only the Dyslexic children, its with every child.. Each has a different plus point, native talent. Is it really brought forward?

Forget children, do we elders know what is OUR real talent? How much do we know ourselves? How much do I know myself?

Do I need to ..

Kholo Kholo Darwaze
Parde Karo Kinare
Khuntey Se Bandhi Hai Hawa
Mil Ke Chhudao Saare

To find

Tu dhoop hai Chhamse bikhar .. Tu hai nadi O bekhabar!!
Beh chal kahin , ud chal kahan
Dil khush jahan , Teri to manzil hai wahi ..............